First Entry November 2011

My Diary

Not sure how often I’ll write. Greatly inspired by His Holiness Satsvarupa das Goswami. He is a prolific devotional writer and unusually open and honest.

Yesterday was Halloween, didn’t have candy for the kids. Unusual oversight. Not a biggie Like devotees of both ages past and present I struggle here and there to “stay on track”.

I didn’t come from a religious background. I never thought of a personal God before meet ing devotees. It’s been a serious path of self-transformation. I’ve discovered that the Lord most certainly exists and is present. What stands between is the stuff in my heart.

When my spiritual master Srila Prabhupada was asked by people to show them God, he would often reply, “Do you have the eyes to see God?” Something many folks never considered.

To understand spiritual matters, we certainly can’t seem them with our fleshly eyes. At least in the beginning we can only hear about them from others. Which could work fairly well. Unless.

Unless what? Unless we don’t have any real interest to listen. Unless we are possessed for some reason with  antagonism towards spirituality. Unless our lifestyle is such that inhibits the ability to understand what there is to be hear.

There are things that can stand in between our perception of Spirit, of the Holy Spirit, of our own spiritual nature. That many people don’t know. The situation in some instances might be compared to people living in a cave, the exit to the beautiful outside world not far off.

Unfortunately they have some malady that prevents them from looking to the left and seeing the exit. And some have a malady which causes dislike of the very idea of an exit!

I have discovered, as Bhagavad-gita points out, that often a degree of groundwork is needed to cure ourselves, our vision, of whatever might be clouding it, obstructing.

That is the purpose of spiritual disciplines. To clear our hearts, to empower our vision, to enable us to see and moreover, not only see, but in some cases revive our interest to see ourself, God, and our eternal relationship with Him. We do have an extremely closerelationship with Krishna which is truly most wonderful. Wonderful indeed. More than we might imagine.

I invent readers to explore the Vaisnava theology, the teachings of Lord Chaitanya as presented most recently by His Divine Grace A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami and his  followers or any bona-fide Vaisnava line from Lord Chaitanya.

I'd like to hear your thoughts or comments.